Thank you to all of you who reached out to me. It means so much that you would take the time out of your day to spare me a few kind words. I love you guys.

I’m going to be starting on meds and therapy so hopefully everything is on the rise.

sammy-spirit-winchester:

@ttttrickster to a dear friend of mine going through a tough time, I wasn’t sure of what version you’d like basing on the heat of the moment or how murderous how funny, sunny, sad, happy, hurt, powerful, whatever shade it can be on the day with The Trickster.
This is a sketch made in the middle of the night because I am afraid I’ve failed with words so there it is
And by the way, between you and me, you have to repaint the walls of my room and clean off of all those stories about hookers and such, I can’t just sleep there, mkay?

PS: love to all the Gabriels and non out there

I love you baby. Thank you for listen to me

Y’all should probably blacklist “lauren talks”

I’m in a self depreciating mood. I just suck right now. I can’t do anything right. My writing sucks, I suck at Leading aminos, I suck at work. I suck at being an adult. I suck at being a wife and friend. I really really just suck at everything.

I just worked out, I’m going to eat my way through a 20 piece chicken McNugget, I’m going to take some Benedryl, have a glass of wine, go the fuck to bed and I hope I don’t fucking suck as much tomorrow.

I am literally so anxious I can’t function. I got talked to twice at work for the same thing and today I fucked up on a report and I just can’t. I don’t know why and I can’t stop it and it’s ruining my life. I can’t write, I can’t sleep right, I barely want to eat.

I have an online appointment with a psychologist tomorrow so hopefully that will help.